Jesus in the Storm

I have just read an exposition on a website discussing the passage in the Bible where the disciples are caught in a calamitous storm and jesus is sleeping through it. I have read this story many many times and usually come away impressed with the fact showing Jesus took control and showed them all He was God and would always be there no matter what the situation as someone they could trust. Upon closer inspection..... we recall almost all the disciples were fishermen or at least used to helping with fish as well as in the seas... plus as Jews... they were all too familiar with Gods use of the seas as a means to express Himself whether it be His protection power or anger. The greek word used in the passage indicates more than just a rainstorm it was a truly malevolent typhoon type storm with huge waves crashing upon them water filling up the boat faster than they could get it out sensing a possible capsizing and drowning..... and Jesus...... slept!!!!! As fear and panic gripped them all they went and woke Jesus up.... and of course Jesus immediately calmed the whole scenario and made all normal again.

Jesus asked them all..... O ye of little faith why are you afraid???? He had been with them now quite a long time .... they knew Him.... knew His ability..... yet look closely at whatthey said to Him when they woke Him up...... "do you not care whether we live or die?? *


WOW........ I saw that and it hit me like a slap in the face....... they KNEW Jesus ability, that He had power over wind and sea and that He was messiah.... YET they doubted His care for them...... His love for them....... O MAN....... Isnt this the KEY ISSUE we have in our relationship with God???? Like with Job...... do we trust Him???? do we love Him???? and how can WE expressed in Jesus own disciples.... question whether God loves and cares about us. FAITH........ simple unadulterated childlike FAITH...... that no matter what we face no matter how scary hard rough difficult painful or whatever we think of it GOD IS FAITHFUL..... HE IS THERE FOR US!!!!! This hits me to my core because this is my seemingly endless struggle every day can i REALLY REALLy TOTALLY trust God????? I mean look my dad died of skin cancer..... people die every day from all kinds of things..... natural disasters destroy huge amounts of land and kill millions in one fell swoop unpredictable disaters and accidnets happen all the time.... can I trust God????

My rational mind of course says YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS A THOUSAND TIMES YES!!! ALWAYS FOR ALL ETERNITY YES!!!!

then.... theres the small scared voice deep inside,,,,, seeing all these bad frightening things happen and feeling combination of guilt shame for being bad for not obeying or having stronger faith ...... worried if i can ever really trust God..... ultimately that scared lil voice needs to know and realize... YES ALWAYS YES YES YES!!!!

Really hope to hear comments from any of you about your dealing on this subject.... sure does help to lay it out on the blog lol brings some relief hope day by day we ALL experience His loving care for us internally deeper deeper and deeper!!!!