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pursuing the upward call with fear and trembling

just a 44 year old man seeking to share my meanderings with the world at large or the blogosphere at small

Sunday, December 31, 2006

It Hurts

To reflect back and have all to constnat reminders of past and continual failures

to have such a keen understanding mentally of what God wants to make happen and be so far from carrying it our emotionally/actively

to seek to surrender to God and let Him unravel those things which for whatever reason i have been unable ot unwilling to

to face the fact that pain is a necessary part of lasting change ,growth and transformation

to walk in faith and let go of things which are destructive yet so familiar they have served as a weird security

to open myself to risking in wya i long to and know will be ultimately a joyful thing yet i still am haunted by the shame from falling countless times before

So many more thoughts i could say as to why it hurts I wanted to end with a truly positive thing.... even though it hurts God is wrestling with me and helping me know hope and peace in the midst.... and that He will be in the hurt all the time with me. The more He helps me realize that the less it does hurt.

3 Comments:

At 12:29 PM, Blogger bjk said...

Praying for 2007 to be filled with HIM...FRUITFUL wrestling!!

 
At 3:11 PM, Blogger Smitty said...

Yep, all of those things do hurt. However, the great thing is (and you mentioned it before) is that God is with us even in our hurt and that many time He uses that hurt to bring us closer to Him. Hang in there!

 
At 3:04 PM, Blogger wilsonian said...

There is no shame in failing, Robert. There is shame in not trying.

Thank you for your encouragement over at my place. Praying that in your pain you would find purpose...

Peace to you...

 

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