INFJ and Static

INFJ. I have seen a few  around the net posting. Our type is  a puzzle  quite often indeed. Feeling and judgment tend to be the 2 toughest parts of the type to  deal with. Not so much towards others but towards myself. Feelings can be such a double-edged sword. You  want them to just remain forever when they are positive and joyous..... you wish  they would evaporate when they are painful and sad. Same with judgment. Why cant the positive and good just always be???

Static. It messes up my  focus so often. hate static on tv or radio, let alone inside my own mind and body. God is good all the time all the time God is good. This phrase is a genuine reality of who God is and what he is about. Why does doubt and unbelief have to creep in and  cause the static?? I think  the tension between  black/white vs gray  has a lot to do with. Scripture is laid out in absolute terms  so many places. Rejoice always, do not fear,obey,be ye holy, and a host of  others. What about when its gray though and you aren't doing those things?? 

In sunday school we  studied Romans 9 today. The whole notion of election and predestination of course contained within. Like in Job, the wondering of why does God all ow or  cause certain things to happen??  Ultimately  answer  seems to be who are we to question God at all??? Why then allow us to even have the ability to do so?? The static   starts up......lots and lots of people who dont believe, lots and lots who  believe  entirely different things. Are they made to be as they are because ultimately they would choose  anyway???  Can we  choose  doubt and unbelief, at times, then return to faith???  What happens if when we are in an unbelief cycle we die??  Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr see why i hate the static??? 

Do many maintain the tension of loving God and Jesus as well as their neighbor and also doubting and struggling with unbelief at the same time??  Do we all struggle with sin and holiness at the same time all the time??  Can we feel  the hope and joy and love of God and also feel terror, pain and fear of Him or loss of him too??  These are what swirl inside me. Hope to hear any responses if you come by and read.